Anxiety, I have suffered with it for a lot of years.
There are more and more people afflicted by anxiety and of course talking about it opens up the awareness.
I always get surprised to hear about people who have anxiety and panic attacks, (I get those as well), who I would never think suspect to be going through that. I am learning ways to deal with it and to cope with it. I am so aware now that as I start to feel it coming on I can prevent a full blown attack, not always but more often than not.
I realized through some coaching that I actually used my anxiety as a propeller to do many things that I would never have done otherwise. I would get myself to do things, like oh, be in a play, on stage in front of an audience, why you ask? Because it scared the crap out of me and I thought it would help me overcome my anxiety (it didn't btw), but it sure was an experience. There have been many things like this. That day, that coaching session, with his help, helped me to realize that without my anxiety I would have missed out on a whole lot of amazing things. Talk about a aha moment! I stopped looking at my anxiety as a burden and as something I hated to now actually thanking it for being a part of me. I accept that it is going to happen when I least expect it, but because of that day and these realizations, I have been able to avoid having any serious attacks. I have had moments where I can feel it wanting to overtake me, but I talk to myself and acknowledge the feeling and tell myself everything is good, breath a few deep breaths and there may even be tears, but I calm down and move toward whatever it is that I set out to do, even if just for a few minutes.
I was recently in Santa Barbara, California by myself. I do not like to do anything by myself, that's just the way I am. For some this does not bother them at all, this is not me. Anyway, here I am in the hotel, it is beautiful out, I am in friggin California I HAD to go and explore, right? Well of course, not so easy for someone who suffers with anxiety. I could feel the attack coming, my first reaction is, oh just stay in the hotel, but I truly wanted to be out in the beauty of the day. I stopped, took a breath, and started to talk to myself. I knew that I had to do this, yes there were a few tears, but I was able to talk myself down and took one step at a time towards the door, opened it and walked out. I went and walked around for over an hour, I was so nervous at first, but as I looked around and took in the sights, I smiled and was so proud of myself for doing it. I finally understood that for me to overcome my anxiety I need to acknowledge it, be patient and kind with myself and move one foot in front of the other.
How does your anxiety affect you? What things have you done to help you with it? I would love to hear from you..... Thank you!
A few pics from California, yup that's me